*sighs* Living a life of faith is soooooo hard...
And the most painful part there is... when you think you're not growing in faith and love at all...
and THAT'S what I'm feeling right now... My mom, who is a Christian too, told me this morning that I am so selfish and that she thinks--and she's so convinced--that I hate my brothers.
I was literally crying all morning because of this... I prayed and cried to the Lord, asking Him to "bring back to me the joy of my salvation".
But there's still doubt in me... Am I really saved? If I am, then there must be change seen in me by others....
but I don't think there is, so does that mean....
After all the things I've experienced, said, written, and professed,...
I am not saved at all?
I am in need of Bible-based serious answers....
YeLLoWmisT wrote:*sighs* Living a life of faith is soooooo hard...
And the most painful part there is... when you think you're not growing in faith and love at all...
and THAT'S what I'm feeling right now... My mom, who is a Christian too, told me this morning that I am so selfish and that she thinks--and she's so convinced--that I hate my brothers.
I was literally crying all morning because of this... I prayed and cried to the Lord, asking Him to "bring back to me the joy of my salvation".
But there's still doubt in me... Am I really saved? If I am, then there must be change seen in me by others....
but I don't think there is, so does that mean....
After all the things I've experienced, said, written, and professed,...
I am not saved at all?
I am in need of Bible-based serious answers....
Hi Yellowmist....seems like we talked about this once before?
Salvation has nothing to do with being selfish, or hateful, or any other form of human feelings, emotions, personalities, or interactions.
Read the Bible....
NIV Teen Study Bible Compact . and you'll see every known fault and sin and corruption imaginable. Even those these people believed in God, it didn't stop them from falling away, or doing what they did to others, but eventually God brought them to their knees, and they asked Him to change them, and to forgive them. That's what you need to do....not question your salvation!
We are only human, and even though the Christian is known as a Saint, it doesn't change the fact that we go through dozens of periods of changes and challenges in our lives. From childhood, adolescences, middle age, and mature age.....and at every stage of your life you will deal with something you've never dealt with before. You'll see life, and your brothers or sisters, mother, father, and the people you hang out with, can all go through hard periods in their lives. Life is darn hard for a lot of people, and the sooner we recognize it, the better off we'll be.
Ask for forgiveness form your God, and even your bothers, if you feel it necessary. Like I said, I have no idea where your thoughts are coming from, or where your mother's thoughts are coming from. I have no idea how you treat your brothers, or anyone else for that matter. I don't know if you are hurting them physically, mentally, or what. Or just blowing it out of proportion.
But, it's not up to me, or anyone here, to judge you. You know who you are, and if, like I've already told you, have already accepted Jesus into your heart, and asked for His salvation, you don't need to question this, or ask Him again. It's a done deal. Just deal with your problems face on with the people you seem to have problems with. Ask your mother what she's talking about. Ask her what she wants from you.
Change your attitude towards your bothers, if you see that's the problem. You do have to put some effort into it. If God is telling you to change, if that's what you're hearing from your questioning, than you'd better listen. You don't need me or anyone else to tell you.
You're young, and change doesn't happen overnight. But work at it. Ask HIm for help, continually. Ask for help from your parents, or your brothers..... But don't ask for salvation, once you've already received it. Receiving it means: You know who answers your heart when it cries. It's a personal relationship. It's a personal friendship. You have to believe this, and believe that there will be answers. Read John. If you don't believe this, than you need to ask yourself why...and please study the Bible!
Get yourself one that is easy to understand. There are Bibles out there that are written in everyday language. These that I've posted are published by Zondervan, which is an established and very well respected company. I wish you nothing but the best in your life. If you feel you'd like to tell us more about this situation, I'll be here to listen, but I can't give you any more advice than what I've already given you. It really is out of my hands.
Believe and have faith,
Kathy
YeLLoWmisT wrote:Thanks Kathy S... thanks for the time replying... sorry if I was redundant...
Yellowmist,
Please don't be sorry! I hope I didn't sound too hard on you? I'm old enough to be your grandmother, and I do have grandkids, and I do sit them down and talk to them just the way I've talked to you, when necessary. I wanted to get your attention, and give you answers, but I also didn't want to sound like I was lecturing you, either. I never know how readers will read my writing. I just wanted to make it clear about this subject of Salvation.
I never want to hurt you in any way, I just wanted to give you information that hopefully helps you grow. No matter the age, we all have room to grow!
If you want to vent, this is a great place to do it! If you want answers from God, just make sure you let us know when these vents aren't meant to be answered by us. And be sure to let us know if you're doing okay, and if your questions are being resolved, or answered. Okay? I don't worry about you, I just feel concerned when I hear your heart being torn.
There are a lot of people your own age here, probably with similar concerns, and writing is what this place is all about, so please continue to talk!
I hope you have a great weekend!
Kathy
